mercredi, juin 04, 2008


This is the first entry composed from my new workspace. Everybody has left the office, which leaves me with basically nothing to do. Jam won't start till 8.40pm and basically, I'm going to stick around for a while before heading to Uptown with a mission to get the groove back.

It's funny (at least to me) to discover my reaction when a friend broke the news that someone is actually interested to get to know me. Being a person who has the reputation of repelling people instead of attracting them, Ihave to admit that it is rather 'disturbing' than flattering.

Way back when I was a lot younger, I used to have the guts to go to blind dates. Very brave I must admit. However, the bravery is not applicable to the current situation. Mostly because I have found my standard and am pretty sure that any date set for me will be just another waste of time.

Maybe it's the benchmark I have now- Sean.

He's a rare breed. I don't think it's easy to find a person is able to fulfill the requirement.

And I don't say it's impossible.

It's just that it'll be a painstakingly difficult head hunting session to conduct.

I was at the verge of having an emotional breakdown after having a slight misunderstanding with Sean. And I almost confessed about the feelings I have for him.

Almost doesn't count...

We're now back to our regular socializing activities.

The urge is not as bad as the last time. I even had a moment when I woke up one morning with a decision of giving him a second thought; of giving the whole thing a re-evaluation.

It nevertheless provides me with a relief from having to invest my emotion on unnecessary issue.

Just how complicated can it grow, I'd like to know.

Ikkie has been out of the picture eversince I made the decision to put a stop to the whole shit he had with his uncertainties. I blocked him from my life long enough before I decided that it's time to disband him from the cold treatment.

We resume communication but not without a price. As the result of his game, I refuse to let him end every convo without having the taste of my sarcasm.

No more Miss Nicey.

Truth is, I wonder if these guys are the only options for me to choose from. I haven't been dating entirely new guys for the past few years.

If you think your love life is pathetic, how about taking my suggestion to assessing your statement again.

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